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No words for tonight
just feelings…
feelings I cannot convey
emotions kept locked
inside a black marble coffin
I am tired, I am restless

No words for tonight
just feelings…
feelings I cannot embrace
I am the undead
human in disguised
I am tired, I am damned

No words for tonight
just feelings…
feelings I cannot control
overflowing now
a rush of anger a drop of lust
I am tired, I am evil

No words for tonight
just feelings…
feelings I will surrender
take my heart
keep it hidden from me
I am tired, I am lost

No words for tonight
just feelings…
feelings I need to destroy
forget, erase, delete
to care is to die
I am tired, I am weak

No words for tonight
just feelings…
feelings I will not have
not for you, not for me, not for anyone
I walk alone
I am tired… I am.

the bitchy's code

So to you who kept me sane and afloat
During my bout with
depression. Who untiringly
prays for my wretched
soul. Who calmly accepts
the constant verbal
counteroffensives I throw
your way. Who keeps up
with all the madness I
bring into your
life. And for
all the
wonderful
things you
just brought
into mine. I
thank you.

filler #02

i wanna put you into poetry
i can't...
make you a song
still can't...
i just stare at you and im at lost
in content...
happy...
i am complete...

imagine

Imagine there's no heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people

Living for today...

Imagine there's no countries

It isn't hard to do

Nothing to kill or die for

And no religion too

Imagine all the people

Living life in peace...

You may say I'm a dreamer

But I'm not the only one

I hope someday you'll join us

And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions

I wonder if you can

No need for greed or hunger

A brotherhood of man

Imagine all the people

Sharing all the world...

You may say I'm a dreamer

But I'm not the only one

I hope someday you'll join us

And the world will live as one

-John Lennon

pa musik # 1

pearl jam - alive

filler #01

this never ending journey to win your heart
it's pointless, crazy and somewhat tiresome
but still i will endure it
and so i stride in agony
for at the end...bliss.

mingaw

My Pajama Monologue

i remember the days
the day i wear pj's
wake up with a smile
a kiss on the cheek
warm greetings
hot chocos
the world is my playground
life's so easy back then
my friends always there
love is everywhere

but time really change
wake up with a stress
i miss the kiss
no more greetings
no more chocos
the world turned into hell
life's a mess
a dozen headaches
a thousand heartbreaks

yeah...i miss those days
the day i wore pj's

of me and ignorance...

who are you? i asked...
no answer...
who are you?

why, dont you know me? he said...
who are you? i asked again...
i am you...he answered

dont you recognize me?
cant you feel?
well, i do, because i am you

we are one and we are many
many? how many?
many...just too many

how? why?
ask yourself...i am the ignorant one
ask hatred, or deceit, ask anger

how about hapiness? joy?
ha! they dont talk
they're asleep...always asleep

do you have a name?
i am ignorance...
i am you in denial

no! you are nothing
yes, that i am too
ignore...deny...

get out of my mind
i will, if only you'd accept
call for acceptance

acceptance??
yes, one of your many
i know him but we've never met

im dreaming...
no, dreams are for the sane
sanity is gone, he left years ago

get out! disappear!!please...
i cant, i am a part of you
only acceptance can vanish me

i dont need acceptance
then here i shall remain
here i stay forever

no, i command you
get out...
dont ever come back

die!! die!!
yes, i will you to die!!
die!! die!!

i cannot die...
i will not die...
just accept...

no, today you die
hmmm...
i cannot die, we are one

your enemy, is it me or you?
do you even know?
do you?? we are one...

...as anger awakens

The Effortless

i am he the effortless
a recipe i have created
a food that would torture my soul
immobility my specialty
in this sadness for eternity i will remain

outstretched my hand it is to you
begging, pleading
save me from my own demise
trapped in this nothingness
forever silenced

can you see me?
hear me...feel me...
take me away in this uncertainty
insanity, confusion, everything's unclear
save me...can you hear me??

a glimmer of hope, let me see
redemption...
sweet words, shower me
refresh...
cleanse...
heal me...

in this darkness i must prevail
let me dance through the light
it is you i need
my power, my strength
enlightenment...

can you even hear me?

kung wakay lingaw mag in ani sad ka!

haaayy...
gatambay, gahigda
gatanga
way mabuhat
sige lang ug huna huna
gapaabot makalakaw
mulihok, nusa pa makahunat
dagway murag abat
gasiga mata murag naka tama
ma aan nag adis
di na gyud ikalalis
ang pagka bulay-og ga apaw
imagination ray gadagan
way agi, wa tanan!!
hahay nimo nyor
nusa pa kaha maka amgo
imo gibuhat dili gyud sakto
pisti!! yawa!! atay!!
dong pastilan
haya haya gyud
kinabuhi sa tapulan...